You wonder why I'm afraid now,
But I've always been this way.
I just put on a brave front,
To avoid what you may say.

You ask why I won't,
Ever let you in,
But I have this fear,
Of getting hurt again.

You wonder why I won't cry,
And why I need to act strong,
But you don't understand,
Because you have a shoulder to cry on.

But who would I go to,
That would ever let me cry,
Who would just hold me,
Without ever asking why?

I'm always there to listen,
I'll always be there for you.
You have your own problems.
You don't need mine too.

Why do I always,
Have to be the strong one?
Maybe I just want,
Someone to lean on.

A child walks alone,
He stands tall.
I bet you'd never guess,
That he'd seen it all.

You'd never think to ask,
If he's alright.
I know that you can't see,
His internal fight.

This child lives in the shadows,
In the alleys he calls home.
But he'd never tell you that,
There's no way you could have known.

It's hard to believe,
That someone so young,
Could have been through hell,
Yet had done nothing wrong.

You don't see him now.
He's hiding again.
The world doesn't notice,
That maybe he just needs a friend.

She always said never.
She always stood tall.
Always in charge,
Never thought she'd ever fall.

She'd never let a guy,
Ever do this to her.
She was always the one,
To say this is how we were.

But everything changed,
And fear took it's place.
Fear of falling in love,
Seems that was the case.

She didn't like the feeling,
That she was hung up over him,
And yet her defense gave way,
The line was so thin.

The line blurred and disappeared,
When she fell so fast.
Is this what they call love?
And will this feeling last?

She let him steal her heart.
He could do no wrong.
There was no one but him.
She had known this all along.

Chained inside,
This tender heart lies,
Underneath the darkness,
Of fear and of lies.

Words never spoken,
Always hurt the most.
And the words she's never heard,
Are seen in the tears she's lost.

It's not his fault,
That she shies away.
He managed to break the walls.
Now the chains lie in his way.

She runs from his love,
And this feeling that she has,
Terrified that what lies in his arms,
Is all she's ever wanted.

She's careful,
Afraid to hand over her heart.
But it's not him she's afraid of.
She doesn't trust herself.

I'm asking you now,
To please forgive me,
Before I lose my chance,
And say things I don't mean.

Is it really my job,
To try and fix this?
Did I cross the line this time,
And say what I shouldn't have.

Maybe it's about time,
Someone put me in my place.
They're your problems,
Situations I wasn't meant to face.

I know you're suppose to be there,
When your friends need your help,
But what happens when the line blurs,
Between help and interference.

It's too late to take things back,
And I know that it's too late to make amends.
My greatest fears are coming true.
I hope you'll forgive me in the end.

Why do I always find myself,
Struggling to stand,
Helping you up,
When I'm lying on the ground.

I'm sorry that I lost my senses,
And said those things,
Those things that no one,
Should have ever known about me.

I find myself caught in the middle yet again,
But this time it's so much worse,
Because the stakes are so much higher,
Than they were at first.

I put myself in this situation,
So I know it's my fault.
I can't stop a war by myself,
Because I'll only get out with scars.

I'll never change your hearts.
It seems you're both set in stone.
But if you're both right and I'm wrong,
Maybe I'm the one that needs to change.

It's not my battle.
It's not my fight.
But now it's my job,
To make things right.

I don't know who's lying,
Or who could be at fault.
There's very little truth,
In this tangled web of thought.

You're standing on separate sides,
Yet you're both my friends,
Which worries me the most,
Because I fear the end.

This isn't my fight.
Please don't make me choose,
Because I'm so afraid,
Of just who I will lose.

I don't like to take sides.
I was only trying to help,
But now I'm in too deep,
To get out with myself.

I'm at a loss for words.
For once I don't know what to do.
I'm trapped in at all sides,
When all is said and through.

It's now my job to fix it,
And I could have sworn,
I never asked for this,
To ever feel this torn.

My heart flies upon the wind,
Blowing it far away, free.
By nature I am a dreamer,
And this is, my fantasy.

The wind whispers to me,
The secrets of long ago,
Tales of legend and myth,
What the past has to show.

Walking along to path of light,
My destiny set before me,
A chance of fate that brings me here,
For all my life to see.

Standing on the edge of darkness,
A war between good and evil reigns,
Fueling an ancient rivalry,
When the world cries, it rains.

Dancing through the rain soaked streets,
My soul cries out in delight.
I feel the raindrops on my skin.
It makes the whole world seem right.

The world turns grey,
Yet my eyes remain dry.
I can't make it do away,
So I let my soul cry.

Secrets better left buried,
Begin to slowly consume.
Frightened voices emerge hurried,
Because there's nowhere to run.

I can't run from a past,
That has the power to kill.
I will fight until the last,
Scream ends it's shrill.

Haunted souls that know no pride,
Not shame nor feeling,
That once brought inside,
Can eventually begain the healing.

The world is now black,
Feelings of pain are gone.
There's no turning back,
I can see now what I've done.

Seriously, I want to know,
What did you expect out of this?
You screwed yourself over,
I'm sorry, I can't fix it.

Maybe you should learn some respect,
For those you call your friends,
Because you're just pushing me farther,
And no one will be there in the end.

The waves are getting stronger,
And the water's getting deep,
But you're too arrogant to admit it,
I swear you'd die before you'd sleep.

How can you just stand there and watch,
While I'm lying on the ground.
I'm choking on you're lies,
'Cause you're the one that pushed me down.

I'm leaving now,
'Cause you don't want me around.
I hope you had fun,
Now you can fucking watch me drown.

You know I don’t hate you,
At least I hope you do,
'Cause there’s no turning back,
On all that we’ve been through.

Friends come and go,
But you were always there for me.
Do you know how much that means,
To somebody like me.

Sure, we’ve had our fights,
But you know what they say,
You always fight with a best friend,
'Cause you know they’ll always stay.

You don’t have to feel threatened,
By anyone else.
You might not like her,
But she’s someone I can trust.

I wish you’d understand,
I really do.
I don’t play favorites,
But she’s my friend too.

After all these years,
I thought you’d get it by now.
Your friendship means everything to me,
More than you could ever know.

I hope this makes you understand,
'Cause I’m not so good with words.
I wish you’d just talk to me,
I want you to know you could.

I’m sorry, but you need to know,
This time you crossed the line.
But I hope I’m still your best friend,
'Cause I know that you’ll always be mine.

Like black little soldiers,
They all stand in line,
These tormenting demons,
These shadows in my mind.

These shadows have names.
They are the people all around,
The ones who betrayed me,
And left me dead on the ground.

They play their twisted mind games,
And tell deadly little lies.
Those who are sorely mistaken,
If they think I'll give up and die.

Shadows leave ugly marks,
Stains upon my soul.
These shadowns know no shame,
That have me in their control.

In the fading midnight,
Dark thoughts turn black,
And so I scream into the night,
"I want my soul back."

You were the first, to show me it could hurt,
To lose something you never had.
When I saw the truth in your eyes,
In that one moment,
When we let go of the lies.

I crossed the line, and everything was fine.
I felt like I meant something,
To someone, to you.
You were my dream,
But who says dreams come true.

You know it's wrong, so don't lead me on.
Just let me know how you feel,
Because you've left me confused.
Any girl would rather be left alone,
Than have her heart abused.

There’s so much I want to tell you.
So much I want to show.
I know that you don’t feel the same,
But these are things you deserve to know.

If you wonder what got me,
I wasn’t fooled by a flirt.
I didn’t think for a moment,
That you could make this feeling hurt.

If you wonder why I act this way,
I really couldn’t tell you.
Just know that you got my attention,
Even if you didn’t mean to.

If you wonder why I’m silent,
It’s because I don’t know what to say.
I don’t know if I could say anything,
To make you feel this way.

If you wonder why I stare,
It’s because that’s all I can do.
And while I hope you notice,
I can’t make any other move.

If you wonder why I can’t get over you,
I promise you that I did.
It’s not my fault that you smiled at me,
And I fell for you all over again.

I know I can’t make you love me,
But don’t think I’m like any other girl.
I’m having a hard time forgetting you.
These feelings are far too real.

If you wonder what’s wrong,
And if there’s anything you can do.
You’re the only one that can help,
But I wouldn’t ask that of you.

Everyone wonders,
Why I put myself through this.
But it wasn’t my choice,
My heart decided it.

There are so many things I want to tell you.
So many feelings I want to show.
But I don’t think you want to hear these things,
And I guess now you’ll never know.

I'm so sorry,
But there was a time,
When I couldn't trust you,
With the secrets that were mine.

You weren't the only one,
There's no doubt.
I didn't let anyone in,
And nothing out.

I was so afraid of letting someone in,
That I couldn't see,
I couldn't hold everything in,
That it was destroying me.

It was so hard,
Don't you see,
Everything was falling apart,
And the truth wasn't free.

It came at a cost,
That I couldn't pay,
But you lent me your time,
And you were there to stay.

I guess I didn't know why,
But you stayed by my side.
When I broke down,
You saw the tears I never cried.

You helped me stand,
On my own two feet again,
Just by being there,
When you should have ran.

I'd walk in with a smile,
But you'd see through the mask,
You always knew something was wrong,
You didn't even have to ask.

For once I could talk,
And somebody would listen.
I found my walls crumbling,
Because of a few true friends.

I know I still keep things in,
And my fears are buried deep.
But they're not just my secrets anymore,
I've shared and they're yours to keep.

I'll always believe in you,
And defend you when you're wrong.
I'll never abandon a friend.
I'll always be there for you to lean on.

I put my trust in you,
And you proved to be,
Someone I could count on,
Someone who wouldn't betray me.

I want just one chance,
To hear your voice.
Just one moment with you,
Make it my choice.
Just one kiss,
To find out how it feels.
Just one touch of your hand,
So I know that it's real.
Just one arm around my shoulder,
So that I can feel safe.
Just this once,
And I promise I'll walk away.

Just one chance to hold you,
So I can look into your eyes.
Just one comforting word,
To tell me everything's fine.
Just one glimpse into your heart,
So I can see the truth.
Just one,
Would be enough.

I'm not that strong.
That much I've figured out,
Because when you pushed me to the limits,
I broke down and cried,
But not on the outside.
That would be too great a weakness for me to show.
No, it all has to be on the inside,
Where the tears formed shallow pools upon my heart,
And where I wallowed,
In self pity and wouldn't,
Let go of the fact,
That I wasn't as strong as I needed to be.
Maybe that is my greatest flaw,
The fear of having weakness.
Because after all,
Can't I accept that I'm human too?
I guess I'm just not strong enough.
I can't take this anymore.
It'll keep tearing at me from the inside,
Until nothing's left...

A small strangled scream,
From deep within your soul.
A desperate cry for help,
Before you start to fall.

A shallow bleeding wound,
Inflicted on your heart.
When you can't take it anymore,
When you've been ripped apart.

Shattered strength,
And honest hate,
Love's a war,
And this your fate.

Cold metal grip,
The sickening taste of death.
Longing for escape,
That's your only chance left.

When the pain consumes,
We cry for your sake.
Life's a gift,
And it's yours to take.

A cold wind blows,
Dancing with your hair.
A smile graces your lips and I know,
That you can feel the heat of my stare.

I don't know why I find you,
So completely fascinating.
I guess maybe I like you, but I'm
Not going to sit here waiting.

Because I know how you are,
And I'm not falling for it.
You're just a flirt but maybe,
That's how you got my attention.

But I like the way you can make me laugh,
When I can't even smile.
And now I try to get your attention,
So I can talk to you every once in awhile.

I think about you more,
I can't get you out of my mind.
And I think of what it might be like,
If just maybe you were mine.

Now I know what they see in you,
They see what I see.
I once told myself that you're everything,
That's the complete opposite of me.

It's the truth and I keep telling myself,
That we're way too different, and
It would never work.
But that's like telling myself not to breathe.

I don't think that I've,
Ever really felt like this before.
I've grown tired of watching and waiting and now,
Maybe I want more.

But I'm nothing special,
What could you see in me?
I don't stand a chance because after all,
Why would you choose me?

I can't even tell you these things,
Even though I always thought I was strong.
Why should this be any different, or maybe,
Just maybe I was wrong.

I feel like I'm on my knees now,
But do you even care?
I feel like breaking now,
But you're still not here.

Reality hit me hard,
And the truth is plain to see.
I told myself I'd never fall so hard,
That I'd never let a guy get to me.

I thought it infatuation,
A simple girlish crush.
I can't believe I didn't realize,
That I was falling in love.

If you knew how fake I was,
Would you still hang around?
If you knew how angry I was,
Could you still be found?

If I said I was in love,
Would you think it part of a con?
And if you knew how afraid I was,
Would you still want my shoulder to cry on?

If you knew how weak I was,
Would you still lean on me?
I won't accept your help,
But would you try and see?

If you knew how lonely I was,
Could you lend me your time?
When I push you away,
Will you pretend everything's fine?

If I showed you my pain,
Would you understand?
And if you knew I couldn't let you in,
Could you ever trust me again?

If only I told you these things,
Would you still be my friend?
Just give it some time,
For a shattered heart to mend.

You know how I feel,
Don't you?
Hurt, broken, betrayed,
You've felt that way before.
How can you feel safe,
When everything around you is falling to pieces,
And you're the only one that knows.

Your lies will be your death,
But the pain will be left behind,
And then you'll know, It wasn't always about you.
It hurt me,
And I cried too,
But it doesn't matter,
At least not to you.

Every tear that fell,
Gave you a reason to push me down,
But I was never that weak,
You should know that by now.
You didn't like the way,
That I always fought back,
But you still refused my worth,
And that's what hurt the most.

All the shots have been taken.
Everyone around you is gone.
What will you do now?
So much for your fun.
But I'm still here,
And I refuse to back down.
You're not stronger than me,
I realize this now.

Yet I still cry,
At night when I'm alone.
The pain will not fade,
But I know it's all my fault.
I've kept all the truths,
All your lies have come undone.
But I will be by your side,
If you still want someone.

Unlike you, I can forgive,
But I will not be beaten down.
Unlike you, I can forget,
Just let me heal my wounds.
I know you hurt too,
Beneath your taunting disguise.
I never wanted to be you.
I see now, neither of us won.

I see him walking down a lonely road,
This street that is his home.
The city is a refuge,
It's the only life he has ever known.

People call him scum,
Worthless city trash.
They look down on him.
He just turns his back.

He fights every day,
Just to survive,
Cold, bitter nights alone,
Looking in with closed eyes.

His grey eyes mourn,
And the scars won't fade.
Wounds of the soul don't heal,
Yet he is never afraid.

He looked at me with those grey eyes.
I could see his pain was so much worse.
He let me in and gave me a key,
This key that was his first.

Far too young,
To have to be so strong,
I don't feel sorry for him,
For he has had the world all along.

Sometimes darkness covers up the gold,
And at only seventeen,
He is a fallen angel,
My angel in the streets.

They say that eyes,
Are windows to the soul.
Eyes that were once cold and grey,
Now have so much more to show.

Your path was rough,
But it's not something you regret.
You dealt with the devil,
And won that bet.

A fire dances in your eyes.
The weaknesses are now gone.
The love of one changes everything.
That spirit can now face life head-on.

It's like holding a knife to your throat.
You have the power to pull it away,
Or you can choose to end your life.
True despair is when you can't move either way.

As our lives are defined,
By the choices we make.
It's what you give to life,
Not what you take.

From the moment I met you,
I knew I had found a friend.
Before I knew it, I had fallen in love,
And my lonely heart began to mend.

As days passed by,
Our friendship grew to be so strong.
But I wanted more than a friend,
It was your love for which I longed.

But it was hopeless,
And I began to see.
You loved someone else,
There was no room in your heart for me.

And that fateful day,
When I saw you with her,
My heart stopped, and I ran dazed,
As the world passed in a blur.

Maybe I was too young,
But I understood.
I couldn't break a bond so deep,
Though I thought I should.

The pain was still there,
And that night I cried.
But I couldn't forget you,
Hard as I tried.

I went back to you,
With forgiveness in mind.
I found I still hated her,
And my anger hadn't been left behind.

But I never left your side,
I even showed you my deepest fears.
You said I taught you to trust,
But I still cried broken tears.

I put my heart on the line,
And had everything to lose.
I tried to make you understand,
Tried to make you choose.

I just wanted you to be happy,
So I told you to follow your heart.
You said I had proven my love,
That you loved me from the start.

From the moment I met you,
I knew I had found a friend.
Before I knew it, I had fallen in love,
And my lonely heart began to mend.

But it was hopeless,
And I began to see.
You loved someone else,
There was no room in your heart for me.

But I never left your side.
I even showed you my deepest fears.
You said I taught you to trust,
But I still cried broken tears.

I put my heart on the line,
And had everything to lose.
I tried to make you understand,
Tried to make you choose.

I just wanted you to be happy,
So I told you to follow your heart.
You said I had proven my love,
That you loved me from the start.